I am Maciena
I am.
Tonight I just am.
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I miss the feeling when I would swing on a swing for hours, singing and whatever….then get off the swing for the first time in hours and my legs feel like jello.
i miss the feeling when i wake up from a good nights sleep, and i just know that today is gonna be a great today.
i miss knowing exactly where i stood with people.
i miss eating without regret. whatever i wanted just to eat it, not to watch weight, or be healthy.
i miss the feeling of wanting to be a grown up….how i wish i was a kid again….
i miss the nights that seemed to last forever.
i miss feeling like i had the world at my feet, not feeling i’m at the feet of the world.
i miss the days where i didn’t feel the need to get on the internet….i seem i can’t live without it now….
i miss feeling like i was needed.
i miss not having to remember stupid passwords.
i miss tapes, and recording songs off the radio onto said tapes.
i miss my friends, hanging out with them, laughin so hard that i cry, sides ridged with pain.
i miss being carefree.
i miss you.
i miss laughing at cotton candy, dots, and all things that fall under that field.
i miss watching sappy romance movies all by myself and crying, because that was the only time i could cry because no one would see.
i miss that small window in time where things were so good, i didn’t see then, but it was…and it’ll never be that way again…things are okay now. i am happy and love life…but that window was just amazing it was so short and so full of new things that it was ….well words can’t describe it.
i miss simpler times.
i just miss they way it was.
i miss …
i just miss.
i’m tired of being stubborn….this a my last white flag i have ….i miss my best friend. i’m so tired of being ignore by you, cause that how i feel now…I’ve tried to reach out and strike up anything with you…i know you don’t want to do this online, or on the phone….but i’m so tired of not having you….
just please…something….just something…..please.
